February 2012
2 posts
Are you hurting as much as I am right now?..
I guess you’re doing just fine.
January 2012
1 post
I’m going to leave because you won’t ask me to stay.
October 2011
1 post
30.10
LIFE IS MESSY.THAT’S HOW WE’RE MADE.MAYBE WE’RE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE HAPPY. THERE’S A STORY TO BE TOLD; TIRED&UNINSPIRED; SO.HERE SHE IS;SITTING STILL AS INSOMINIA AND SILENCE KEPT HER COMPANY WHILST SHE POUR HER HEAVILY ACHING EYES & EMPTY THOUGHTS OUT. EVEN A CIRCLE COMES TO A FULL STOP AT SOME POINT; PEOPLE CHANGE, FEELINGS CHANGE;PEOPLE GROW, AND THEY GROW APART;...
September 2011
1 post
Heart.
Dear heart,
You fall in love too wholeheartedly and carelessly.
Then you end up in tears wondering how you let this happen.
Don’t be so naive,
Stupid.
June 2011
2 posts
Siezed to exist
How could the one i gave my heart to, hurts me so bad?
Bad milk.
We all have ulterior motives, over achieving, lying, man eating backstabbers.
The human race is disgusting.
Is there such thing as a good person?
Oh,& Me?
Im bad milk.
December 2010
1 post
“she strikes a pose & she dies inside nobody knows shes such a beautiful...”
October 2010
2 posts
August 2010
1 post
080110.baffled.
The hardest part is restraining your affection to your boyfriend because he just won’t respond to it. I really don’t know what went wrong in our relationship or if it’s just a one sided love… I really wished he’d open up to me… I wish he’d …
June 2010
2 posts
061310.
I can hear them laughing. Judging my every move, mocking my words; It could be my imagination going wild; Perhaps I’m just paranoid. Maybe, I’ve gone mad. Once you’re stuck in a situation where you’re no longer in control and you don’t know who you are anymore; Tell me, How does one redeem oneself?
=)
That familiar smile crept up my face as I read those lines over and over again..so do the tears well up from time to time… Then and Now, much appreciated :*)
May 2010
2 posts
100510: Boyfriend.
We’ll speak in whispers where candy coats melt in the hush. Mend the soul behind this window covered in dust. It wanders so and only two can sow it back into its husk. Let me breathe in your scent to exhale a prayer that is us. Now, be my religion as another eve swallows the dusk. Through time tempered trust takings, any heart beats a little slower with scars. Yet to that tune we shall...
#051010
Heaven’s pendulum swings light, bright for most days yet, ” Always and forever”, never was the case. Even hot Mexico suffer these rains.
So we bury those aches, much deeper in talk We all fell for that certainty,deeply unaware that the burden be; patiently waiting by tomorrows shadow, some sappy set-up, silently simmering sorrow.
I flinch at the pain his messages brings; Forced...
March 2010
3 posts
220310. puppet show.
Painted smiles & recorded laughter; BROKEN DREAMS & BROKEN HEARTS; Please return to manufacture, DOLL contains BROKEN PARTS. R E L A P S E !! ; Curtains up, Side by side where we stand; We’ll dance in circle untill our chained feet draws red, as We sing to the tunes of helpess cries.
220310. (:
That familiar smile crept up my face as I read those lines over and over again. I barely remember the last time I had a genuine smile. Then and Now, much appreciated; Thanks for good company. *
“carpe diem quam minimum credula postero; memento mori; Que sera, sera.”
February 2010
1 post
140210.heart&mind
My heart races with every step I take; it skips a beat with every failed plans that was suppose to take place. Longer days and shorter nights, I’m forever stuck in this trap filled maze. Heart and mind, It’s a never ending tug of war.
January 2010
6 posts
300110. Loneliness.
As I lay here, Listening to the ticks of the clock hung across the room; I have already given up on counting sheep to escape insomnia, Ha! … What child’s play! I anticipated for my eyelids to grow heavy whilst my mind chases empty thoughts. Sentences only to form in scattered words and moving pictures appear unclear from fogs. I’ve never felt my heart so heavily numb from all...
Hopeless romantic? That, I am. Believe in the impossible? Always have. Romantisim played me for a fool, Yet… I still haven’t lost faith in Love.
012609
I tried, I really did. I pretended to be stronger, emotionally. I pretended as if I didn’t care But tonight, I’ve completely lost all control and broke down in front of the last person I’ll never want to see me in this state, My dearest sister. It felt as though I took so much effort to make a change, and take two steps forward, Only to back away and move 20 steps back.
...
The airport never fails to amaze me. I especially love the arrival sector. Stories told by the emotions one shows, tears of joy as lovers,friends and families reunites; I can’t help but smile, leaving the pierre elliot trudeau airport in an awe.
Jan072010
I’ve seen and heard way too much for my own good. Watch what you say around people; Don’t be surprise when the tables turn and a new personality surface. Don’t start drama, B’cos Karma’s a bitch.
“It’s a new year and time for a fresh new start after I finish picking up...”
October 2009
1 post
I’m a mess because my heart won’t let me be free. I’ll try to untangle the knots, slowly but surely, one story at a time.
September 2009
1 post
179. War
When I talk; you’ll drift away into your imagination and throw it back at me as plotted nicely as if it was true. When I stand in my own box; you’ll push it until I hit the corner left stranded there as if there’s no way out…
When I defend; nothing seems out right,pointless to do so.. as if I was the one to blame.. When I mesmerize; I can only remember the bad times.....
August 2009
12 posts
177. Love.
The time and energy sucked from within;
Over and Over again.
Mayrygoround.
A force so strong, it pushed her low ;
Blinded by truth, it made her crawl.
Love,something so beautiful yet so torturous.
Corrupt,Destroy, Distort and Betray.
Was it worth it?
Yes.
& I will continue believing.
Love, Peace & Light.
Don't rush, from now on, both of us will walk in...
(via reirainoue)
174. ♥
My heart;
Sometimes it’s better to keep It with me.
As least I’ll know, It is my own, It belongs to me;
My fragile heart.
I don’t know how I fell so hard.
169. Replay
Loneliness reoccurs when she drives in her car by herself, no music playing on the stereo, just the sound of cars passing by.
Things just keeps on falling into the wrong places, when it seems like everything is going to be fine, the next minute you find out it won’t be, what more could she get herself into?
It’s so stressful and tiring to repeat the same things and not have any...
“So if I ever see you on the street
I’ll pretend that I didnt see
And...”
– David Choi - Won’t even start.
“She’s the girl that has a few best friends & doesn’t need anymore, the girl...”
– (via heeeyannnbaaabe) (via dangdarleane) (via jorenedelacruz) (via lynneenguyen) (via engelikahh)
163. Fall back.
One chances too many; How many times can a girls heart break and shatter? Her heart is only holding up by scotch tape, barely holding up. How many times will she have to cry over a heartbreak from the same boy? How many times does she have to regret?
Over and done. No more broken promises, No more one way love;no more tries on this broken and cheated relationship. No more Us.
...
162.Farewell
She felt the doldrums in one’s eyes, the moment she looked at one; Silent whispers here and there, No one really know the reason behind. It is never easy to assimilate unexpected truth about one’s thought;
The clock is ticking.
You hear them whispering;
< Hey, what is she up to nowadays?>
<So is she still working?>
<What is she working now?>
… everyone is...
161. Relapse
Today, Just like most days;
She’ll take a two hour nap following her all nighter. She gets up in a panic and look at the time. 15 minutes untill her shift starts. “Oh shit!” she shouts.
She jumps out of bed, rushed to the bathroom; Brushed her teeth and washed her face, Quickly wears her uniform and grabs a few pieces of clothing to change into after. There won’t be any...
160. Playground.
Remember those late night at the parks?
Their innocence unleashed when they stepped foot on those sands.
That playground that they used to run on;
For the spiderwebs where they climbed,How good it felt to be at the top.
For all those races they had on the kiddy slides; they didn’t mind the dust left on their behinds.
For all the nights laying beneath the stars & Hanging on the...
158. Shipwrecked.
It’s been a month since they last met. It all came down too soon, Too fast. Speeding bullets were shot, Breaking every last piece in sight. Trying to make sense of what’s left. Everything that she once believed in, has turned upside down; Seems like her world has turned away.
In the midst of this war, Plans for a weekend escape the city madness was taken; It was their chance to talk,...
July 2009
3 posts
157. Silence.
It was like a secret affair.
He was waiting for a chance to sneak off, and she was waiting patiently at the park.
She quickly pieced together a bunch of questions to ask, and jolt down all her feelings,She wanted to let it all out; she wanted to let him know how she felt, and what she was thinking. She just wanted it to be out in the open.
She took a deep breath as soon as he texted ” be...
156. Unspeakable.
I’d like to know what you were thinking; When I passed you a glance. Show me the way to unravel the chains on your heart. Why don’t you take my hands, and place your lips on mine?
We are all sick. Love sick.
It’s like diving in an ocean infested with sharks for that treasure chest, risking it all. You can say stupid, or call it greed; but I say, it’s taking a chance.
The...
155. " Do you want to talk about it?"
The things she yearned to say, The words she urge to vomit; Sometimes, it feels like she’s speeding on a one way road, heading down the wrong direction; counting down the minutes until she crashes, and buried under secrets that have been silently kept.
Outside the bar, he asked ” Do you want to talk about it?”
Yes, Yes I would love to talk. Please, Let’s convers. We need...
June 2009
16 posts
153. Battle field.
The two stood 5 feet apart. They left a huge gap in between. Facing the window now, she stared at his reflection; wondering if he knew what was going on. A million thoughts, running in her mind, blood rushing through her vains… Her heart beats by the second.
This awkward silence. They stood there looking at each other through the reflection on the window.
A walk was taken to escape for a...
152. Late night drives
I do this often; get my keys, hop in my car and go for drives in the middle of the night. I went to a 24hr store today.. Picked out my things.. got to the register and realized I had rearranged my fanny pack this morning.
So for this trip, I didn’t bring money. I ended up just driving around my area, blasted the radio and sang along.
There was a good feel to it. I haven’t done this...
151. 4am blues.
She came knocking on my door, Once again. Tonight I let her in, without a fight; no sleeping aids or remedy. Her name is Insomnia.
She visits alot lately… Usually when I see skies in cloudy greys. I’m a bit tense, worries of what tomorrow will bring, got me singing the blues.
Palms sweating, knees aching. I don’t know if I can on any longer.
Sigh… What to do.
150. Stranger
I took a drive to Provigo with my baby brother. Once we go in, I stood at the meals to go section; After minutes of pondering, I’ve finally chosen a box. Seeing another pair of shoes, I handed over the box “here, hold this”. A deep voice replied ” Wrong person!”
I looked up, and this stranger and I had a moment. We looked at each other and laughed awkwardly. I said...
sabino:
I don’t care if monday’s blue tuesday’s grey and wednesday too thursday I don’t care about you it’s friday I’m in love
146. Beginning to an end.
Old photographs turned up in a dusty old box the other night. Hidden on the top left shelf, it contains memories of the happier days. Reaching over, I found a few art pieces I did a few years back…Papier mache piggy bank, old paintings and sketches.
It made me smile.
Back in the living room, where I sat comfortably, I Held a cup of tea, it kept the palms of my hands warm. My third cup, on...
145. poupee on a string.
Frozen hearted, numbed emotions. She’ll spin in circles like a child, but stoped when her legs grew heavy, and her feet drew blood. Time passes & faces changes,Yet she is still where you left her.
Peeping through a tiny hole, specks of dust floats the air… Grey skies leaves a little ray of light, giving her some hope; A reason hold on to that little white rag; a symbol of...
144. Hanging on.
When dreams becomes reality, Reality becomes a dream. In the spur of a moment, picture perfect imaginations…Don’t believe in everything that you see,Images are deceiving- after all, that photograph could have belonged to someone else.
April showers, brings may flowers; July is the month of summer after spring in times of winter when autumns last leave fall.
Half year gone by ,in a...